I hate exams. I hate school. I hate myself. I hate life. Now. If I were smart I would not hate exams because I would have no problems with any of it. I wouldn't hate school if I wasn't stupid. The teachers wouldn't hate me because I would get good marks. If I was pretty and smart I wouldn't hate myself because, well I'd be good enough. I wouldn't hate life because life wouldn't be that hard. So as you may have guessed exam time is here. My mark obviously sucks I'm going to fail the fucking exam and I do NOT want to go back to that hell hole again. I cannot control my emotions at times like this, I get frustrated and start crying almost as soon as I don't understand something. It's pathetic I know which just makes me hate myself more. There has been good news lately however. One of my best friends Sabrina got herself her first boyfriend. I really am happy for her. Well as happy as a (not diagnosed) depressed person can be. I'm glad she's happy. Then at the same time my self pity picks up some more. Y'know since I'm stupid ugly and don't have a boyfriend or a job or a license or car or anything. Ranting here doesn't really do anything...stupid..
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