June 3 2013

So todays post if all happy (: well i think, i just write this as i go and think so we'll see. So i've started to read harry potter to my mother, we're on the 5th day and only have 3 chapters left of the first book. she keeps falling asleep when i read so its hard to get the books done fast but its fun anyway, shell see why i love the books so much now. i've made my first own crochet pattern, its a squid for my little brother since him and his friends think their pirates and have a kraken on their flag they drew. anyway pretty happy with how it came out and ill make more and try to sell them in westport when i try to sell stuff this summer. my friend GK showed me the pokemon fusion website too and asked me to try to make a fusion called 'weepinduck' so im working on that now, hopefully it comes out good. and last but not least ive got all the materials for Ks headbands for her wedding so ive really gotta get on that cuz i spent $30 of my own getting some materials and dont really have enough money to have that gone for too long, im obviously gonna do my best and hope she loves them and not just whip something ugly up to get money though. so there we go! first happy post in maybe the history of this blog, the only thing thatd make this better is if i could report i found the right color of yarn for jigglypuffs eyes and finished the plushie jigglypuff for the person who ordered it so more people will see my stuff and start buying everything like crazy! alas i have yet to find it and havent made anymore sales but im gonna keep trying cuz thats what you gotta do if you want your 'dream' or 'wish' or 'goal' whatever you wanna call it to come true.

May 2 2013

Been almost a year wow, so this post I won't whine about how I wanna die just about how I'm fat. I've got this 'baby fat' tummy that won't go away and I know everyone tells me to just fix my diet and work out but the problem is I'm very bad at forcing myself to work out specially by myself and I can't force myself to eat vegetables and other shitty tasting foods, when I don't eat I get very grumpy but if I force myself to eat 'good for me food' and I don't like it I'm pretty sure I'll be even worse. 'Once you start eating better you'll be happier and feel better' they say, well I really think that's bullshit, my mother keeps telling me I don't eat that bad, I didn't think I did, I don't really eat a lot of candy chips and pop anymore, most of the sugar I eat comes from the sugar I put in my tea, maybe I do need to just work out more I just hate doing it alone and feel useless while doing it with someone else cuz I'm so pathetic, the only reason I've started being really worried about my fat is because the anime con is coming up in about 3 weeks, I know I'm not 'fat' I've just got this extra flubby stuff and it is really annoying sigh anyway I'm pretty excited for the con and hope that my cosplay I'm working on will go well, I know my face is ugly and I kinda ruin whatever person I'm cosplaying at but I'll do my best. I might start writing more maybe just about my day and shit then I wont explode on here once every year.