May 2 2013

Been almost a year wow, so this post I won't whine about how I wanna die just about how I'm fat. I've got this 'baby fat' tummy that won't go away and I know everyone tells me to just fix my diet and work out but the problem is I'm very bad at forcing myself to work out specially by myself and I can't force myself to eat vegetables and other shitty tasting foods, when I don't eat I get very grumpy but if I force myself to eat 'good for me food' and I don't like it I'm pretty sure I'll be even worse. 'Once you start eating better you'll be happier and feel better' they say, well I really think that's bullshit, my mother keeps telling me I don't eat that bad, I didn't think I did, I don't really eat a lot of candy chips and pop anymore, most of the sugar I eat comes from the sugar I put in my tea, maybe I do need to just work out more I just hate doing it alone and feel useless while doing it with someone else cuz I'm so pathetic, the only reason I've started being really worried about my fat is because the anime con is coming up in about 3 weeks, I know I'm not 'fat' I've just got this extra flubby stuff and it is really annoying sigh anyway I'm pretty excited for the con and hope that my cosplay I'm working on will go well, I know my face is ugly and I kinda ruin whatever person I'm cosplaying at but I'll do my best. I might start writing more maybe just about my day and shit then I wont explode on here once every year.